Happy New Year!

Happy 2018, everyone!

I hope you all are ready to take on the new year and relish in checking off some of the things on your daily, monthly, and annual to-do lists. I’m not going to lie, this is a pretty big year for me in that I should be finished with grad school by December and then it’s off to start my life and career by this time next year. So yeah, no big deal at all. With that said, I have a few personal goals that I want to meet. In terms of the blog, I tried listing them out last year and I severely did not meet them. I started school and all of my blogs just got pushed to the side. Also, I just wasn’t motivated to keep writing with all of the personal things happening to me and the sexual misconduct news from Hollywood and around the world in many other professional settings. It was just a lot. Some of my favorite shows were tainted like Mad Men and One Tree Hill as their creators were apart of the scandals. Also, one of my favorite films was produced by the Weinstein Company – SuiteSuite Française. I guess you can say I was heartbroken.

I’m still trying to come to a consensus if I can actually separate the art from the creator. Can I really admire a work of art knowing that the person(s) who created it have done despicable things? Do they leave a stain on the art and should I walk away from it forever? The answer is that I don’t know. I do know that I would hate to stop watching the series and films just because the creators are pieces of sh*t. What about how the films and series made me feel? What about the characters that moved and inspired me? Do I blame them? How about when one of the actors portraying the characters is also a piece of sh*t? Kevin Spacey for example? It’s hard and I’m struggling with it as I would like to someday be instrumental in the TV biz. I would hate for someone to misconstrue my support of a series as support of the people who are a part of the series and have committed sexual misconduct. Because that’s absolutely not the case.

In short, it’s been tough as a woman and lover of film and TV. The recent Golden Globes was inspiring to watch and seeing talents like Oprah stand up and lead the tide. I wish this year to be the stepping stone for women to rise up and take on the industry without any hindrance from men who would otherwise hold them back. Times up!

’til next time!


What is happening?!

First and foremost, Matthew Weiner has been added to the extremely long list of men in Hollywood who have allegedly abused their power and committed acts of sexual harassment and/or assault. I’m disgusted and pissed because I love Mad Men and I have been working on a very detailed and carefully crafted blog post on the series…for months!! I’m just going to scrap it for now until he’s proven innocent, otherwise, f*ck that guy. Also, Mark Schwahn from One Tree Hill? Should I toss my blog post that posted a couple of years ago? I mean, who’s next? Oh yeah, f*cking Ed Westwick from Gossip Girl. Damnit, Chuck Bass!

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That has a whole new meaning.

I’m just so disappointed, guys. I’ve been in love with film and TV for as long as I can remember and these morons are sickening me. I don’t know if I should invest my time and money on watching. Also, I’m studying and paying thousands of dollars to eventually move out to LA to pursue TV…

Don’t even ask me how I feel about that…


I’m just so confused.

Presently, I miss having a supportive circle of people around me that I love and trust. Every day I feel like I am walking on eggshells and worrying about things like grades and projects that shouldn’t be taking up all of my time and energy. I thought that I was ready for the world. Site-seeing. Learning about different cultures. Falling in love. Dreaming big. Ect. Ect. But no, I’m in front of a computer, soaking in the news that breaks my heart, and losing so much sleep over my schoolwork. I still haven’t found something that makes me want to get up in the morning and jump for joy. I thought grad school would be that, but it’s just not. I like being surrounded by like-minded individuals and learning new things in class, but it all feels kind of empty. I don’t know, maybe I’m just sad and miss home. But that’s just the thing, I was so ready to get away from home and be out on my own.

These days, I just don’t know what I want. Will I ever? I don’t want to pass up opportunities, but I also don’t want to be stuck in a situation where I’m missing out on things that will actually bring me joy.


I’m glad I have this blog to vent my emotions and I know that most of you all are here to read about TV and film, etc – but sometimes life matters more, you know. I’m going to do my best to prosper in my classes and get out to LA and really give this dream a chance. It’s something that I’ve worked so hard for and I owe it to myself to give it my all. In the meantime, I just need to give myself a chance to really fall in love with this new city and allow some hope and joy in my life.

Here’s to loving life and trying to make this all work! I’ll keep you all posted.

’til next time.




Still Waiting?

Hi, everyone!

Just letting you all know that I’m still here and writing. I’m just trying to survive grad school. Many of you are wondering about the Mad Men post…it’s still coming. I don’t want to post trash or half-ass my ‘analysis’ of one of the greatest shows…ever.

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Sitting. Waiting. Wishing.

I’m also working on a few other posts on favorite films and songs. I apologize for the long wait…but hang in there! Thanks to everyone who has been reading my posts. You all are amazing.

‘Til next time! And please, be patient with me. 🙂

Coming Up Next: Mad Men

Hi everyone! I’m currently re-watching “Mad Men”, a series that I can easily rank in my top five favorite TV series of all time! The show is such a brilliant work of art and I can’t wait to pick my brain on everything that I enjoy about it. Stay tuned!

When the theme song comes on…

A Little Update On My Life Update

Hey guys, I love that you all liked this post and that you could relate to me in some fashion or form. Just so I’m not fooling anyone, that spark that I mentioned fluttered and blew out! It’s a little sad, but at least I know that I need to continue to focus on myself and get my life together. Not going to lie, it was nice to be a little distracted and feel something like this. The way I’ve been navigating my life is by taking signs very seriously. In terms of this situation, I recently ran into a big flashing sign that told me to turn around, because I was going the wrong way. And there are no hard feelings. I still adore my friend and wish him all the best. I’m a little hurt, but I assume that comes with the territory of opening yourself up and allowing those type of feelings in. For a second, I felt like I was living in some sort of alternate reality.

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But I’m hanging in there. Just so many big changes happening at once and I’m trying to figure it all out! I’m an optimistic person by nature, so I’m rooting that it all turns out well. I should probably stick to focusing on the fictional world for now on though. 🙂

‘Til next time!