Just letting you all know that I’m still here and writing. I’m just trying to survive grad school. Many of you are wondering about the Mad Men post…it’s still coming. I don’t want to post trash or half-ass my ‘analysis’ of one of the greatest shows…ever.
I’m also working on a few other posts on favorite films and songs. I apologize for the long wait…but hang in there! Thanks to everyone who has been reading my posts. You all are amazing.
Hey guys, I love that you all liked this post and that you could relate to me in some fashion or form. Just so I’m not fooling anyone, that spark that I mentioned fluttered and blew out! It’s a little sad, but at least I know that I need to continue to focus on myself and get my life together. Not going to lie, it was nice to be a little distracted and feel something like this. The way I’ve been navigating my life is by taking signs very seriously. In terms of this situation, I recently ran into a big flashing sign that told me to turn around, because I was going the wrong way. And there are no hard feelings. I still adore my friend and wish him all the best. I’m a little hurt, but I assume that comes with the territory of opening yourself up and allowing those type of feelings in. For a second, I felt like I was living in some sort of alternate reality.
But I’m hanging in there. Just so many big changes happening at once and I’m trying to figure it all out! I’m an optimistic person by nature, so I’m rooting that it all turns out well. I should probably stick to focusing on the fictional world for now on though. 🙂
I hope you’re all doing well, following your dreams, and of course watching a lot of TV! I’m trying my best to keep up with the array of high quality television options even though the past year has been the most stressful time in my life. I’ve been working on putting the pieces together for this ‘ultimate goal of mine’ to pursue television! I don’t know how it all will pan out in the end, but I’m motivated and excited to be so passionate about something and to be given the opportunity to go after it! Currently, I’m stressed, nervous, and debating on just hiding under my blankets forever. But I’m also super PUMPED!
I’ll save all of the TV talk for my other posts, because I want to be candid here. This blog has been such a perfect outlet for me to express myself. I hope that I am positively inspiring you all to dream big and take pride in the things that you love. Write about your favorite musicians, shows and films, show off your photography, express your wanderlust, talk about your feelings…
And on that note, here’s a life update:
The thing about being 100% focused on an academic or career goal is that life/reality kind of becomes warped. I call it the “tunnel-vision effect” (is that a real thing?), because for the past 3 years, going to grad school has been my ultimate goal with this past year being a force to be reckoned with! I couldn’t imagine anything else that could make me happier. I just knew for sure that I had fallen in love with television and that I found myself lighting up or glowing when given the opportunity to talk about this thing that I love so much.
But what happens when in the midst of following one path something (or someone) else starts to catch your eye? Yeah, that’s where I am right now. I, by all means, am not an expert on life or happiness, but I do know for a fact that life is unpredictable and the things that make you happy and that give you joy should be acknowledged and taken seriously!
A really good friend of mine has begun to mean a lot more to me than I anticipated. This person, whose smile, whose positive attitude, whose kindness, whose inclusiveness and acceptance, and whose drive and passion towards their own goals has floored me! I’m in awe when I am around him. Out of nowhere, here you are in my life and I have to go so far away for my dreams. My dear friend has become a spark who definitely brightens my day. And yeah, it sucks because I don’t think it would be fair to actually do something about it. Even though I want to. All in all – I’m a mess right now!
Basically, I’m experiencing something that’s such a surprise that I can barely put into words. With life and all of the things uncertain about it, I’m grateful that I’m getting the chance to finally feel something other than finding validation in school or work. I don’t know what will happen to this spark, but I’m glad that it’s here at least for now. This specific feeling is new to me, so I’m trying to work my way through it. It’s terrifying, but also kind of great.
P.S. On another note, I’m still working on my Mad Men post, but as you all can imagine – I’ve been a bit distracted. 🙂
Gal Gadot is WONDERFUL in “Wonder Woman”! I can admit when I need to eat my own words. I may have not been that impressed with her in Batman v Superman, but I sure was on the edge of my seat watching her kick butt this time around! What a justice she does for Wonder Woman’s first solo feature film! Bravo! Can’t wait to see more of her in Justice League.
Also, Themyscira was absolutely stunning and I couldn’t get enough of The Amazons! They were fierce! I wish the film could have spent more time on “Paradise Island”, but we of course had to get the ball rolling and enter the land of war and men.